Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Motherhood Unplugged

I came across a quote the other day that read "Motherhood, the days are long but the years are short." Not sure who wrote it but it is spot on. 
The days feel like they never end, there's always something that needs to be done, diapers that need changing, a kid needs a bath and laundry is never ending. But at the end of the day, late at night, I lay in our bed and realize how fast time is going. Just yesterday it feels like, I was rocking my first born in our super quiet and small one bedroom apartment crying because time was going so fast ( he was only days old) and I didn't want him to grow up. And now, four years later I sit up late at night breastfeeding our third at one month old and think of how right all the mothers were telling me to enjoy it because it goes too fast. 

I get so stressed out in wondering if I'm doing an okay enough job as their mom and if I'm teaching them what they need to know. I spend a lot of my day complaining and sometimes yelling because things don't go the way I'd like for them to go. I'm exhausted most days and can't wait to get the boys in bed for a nap or night time. But when I stop to think about it I come to the realization that all of this only happens once. I might be tired but I do really love this part of my life, as hard as it may get. I love my boys and and I want to spend my time enjoying them and listening to them tell my about how high their monster trucks can jump or Levi telling me there's a fly in the house and watching him try and swatch it away. I want remember each and every bit of their lives at this stage. 

God has blessed me tremendously with this beautiful family of mine and I want to experience and soak every second of it. 

So Susie, LISTEN UP!

As hard as life may seem at time and even though it may seem like you never have time for yourself anymore, it WILL go by fast and those loud annoying little boys will grow up and live their own lives someday. So ENJOY IT! ENJOY IT TO THE FULLEST AND LOVE ON THEM HARD ! SHOW THEM ALL THAT YOU KNOW AND MAKE THEIR DAYS ADVENTUROUS AND FUN. TEACH THEM THE WAYS OF THE LORD AND MAKE THEM GOOD MEN. THEY WILL BE HUSBANDS SOMEDAY AND YOU WANT THEIR WIVES TO BE PROUD OF THE STRONG INTELLIGENT MEN YOU RAISED.


Friday, April 7, 2017

Weekend Update

My gosh it's been a little hard finding time to blog. I'm always doing something through out the day and I have all the intentions of blogging at night but when I get into bed, I am done for the day! The two older boys are non stop energetic machines, add breastfeeding all day and all night long and you have one exhausted mama! But it's been a good three weeks with baby Ben! He's growing by the second!

Last weekend was one of the first weekends in a while that we were just home without visitors/ we weren't visiting anyone. I love having friends and family over, but it was also nice just doing our thing for a weekend.
We took advantage and drove to a couple of flower fields to enjoy the "SuperBloom" this year. I had seen posts on instagram of the Poppy reservation and how in bloom it was this year and wanted to see it for myself and my gosh it was beautiful !

I love this sexy man and how silly he is!

It was insanely windy and cold, but we did the little hike and made it! 

Saturday we stayed home most of the day. We worked on the Nursery, hung up some art and mirrors and added wall decals. Ben co sleeps with us but I do want him in a crib at some point. It's nice to finally have a nursery for one of my babies! 

a little peak at the alphabet wall by the crib

On Sunday we attended a new church here in town and we loved it! It's a big church and has a great children's ministry and the pastor is great and the word was just so good! It felt good to be a part of something good in this new city. With how homesick I've been feeling lately, this was a good thing. 

Speaking of church, our sweet church Crossroads in Camarillo sent us a welcome baby card signed by a couple of our friends and a baby rattle! How sweet is that?! 
After church, we came home and ate. Than we hopped in the car and drove to another super bloom field in the mountains! It was so beautiful!

It was so nice seeing this and experiencing this! It was awesome getting out but I soon realized I need to take it easy because it's only been 3 weeks wince I had my baby and I need to let my body keep healing before I get out and hike and chase kids all over . I definitely felt the pain after being out and about. 

I also wanted to share some sweet moments from this week. 

Oh Hello wide eyed baby!

Berne's n' Nobels trip

Don't mind my face, I just love love love how loving  My little Levi is! He's so affectionate!

Life's crazy right now but I wouldn't trade it for anything! 

Friday, March 31, 2017

Rosie Pope Diaper Bag

I'm so excited about my new diaper bag I had to share all about it!
If you read a few posts back, I was looking at diaper bags and came across the Rosie Pope blush pink diaper bag backpack. I fell in love with it! I began saving for it because it was a little bit of a pretty penny, but I was blessed big time when David's grandma insisted on buying something I wanted for baby Benjamin. I told her about the bag and showed it to her and she was quick to say she wanted to get it for me ! It was super sweet !

So here she is! My gorgeous new diaper bag that you'll see in the rest of my blogposts because I'm going to literally take it everywhere I go!

This diaper bag is just the right size, medium with plenty of compartments for mama and baby! It even comes with a round changing mat and bottle holder. We're getting ready to plan our first trip to Disneyland with kids and this is the perfect bag for that! I can see myself wrapping baby Ben in his Happy Wrap and carrying this diaper bag without a hassle! I can't say enough how much I love this bag! And it just looks so cute too! 

Thursday, March 30, 2017

The Truth

It hit me yesterday that I might be becoming someone I don't want to be. You know the people on social media that have beautiful pictures that depict the perfect life we all want. I'm not saying my pictures do that but they might be misleading to our actual life or emotions we might be feeling at the moment.
Don't get me wrong, our life is definitely not horrible or bad at all but I have been down in the dumps lately.

Before having Benjamin, I was terrified to be a mom of three 4 and under. I felt like the only thing I did all day was stay in sweat pants, no make up and yell at the kids. How was I supposed to add one more to the mix and keep my cool?
I'm still working on that but God has really walked me through every second of the day and given me energy and patience that I did not have before. It's been difficult yes but it IS doable. And I'm doing it.

Another emotion I've been currently feeling is being homesick.
I know, I know, we moved because this was what we wanted so I thought, and what we could afford. It might be because of having the baby and how sweet and helpful everyone has been these past two weeks but I just want to be surrounded by my family and friends. I get super sad thinking about it and how bad I want to be back in my town where I know and recognize people and places.

This past Sunday we attended our church in Camarillo and the service was about how it's good to fellowship and talk your emotions out with fellow believers so that you are lifted up.
So afterward I reached out to a couple of sweet ladies I've known there and cried out to them telling them how I feel. I got such real feedback it made me feel so much better. My friend (mind you she has 4 little ones and looks so well put together every Sunday and volunteers) told me that it's okay to feel this way, that having a third baby can mess with your emotions and it takes time to find your routine. She even said that if it takes feeding them a chocolate bar for dinner so I can rest or do what I have to, it is okay. We can always get back on track later but I need to also take care of myself and find that time to be okay.
Another friend also texted me telling this ( feeling homesick) is temporary and it will pass. That we will find our happy place and this is just a "for now" thing.

"By helping each other with your troubles, you obey the law of Christ." Galatians 6:2

My mom and my dad have been super sweet and caring as well, considering my emotions and sending me prayer texts and support. I'm telling you, I'm really missing all my people.

I know this will pass and whether or not we stay in this new city or not, time will pass and this feeling will be one of the past. The kids will grow and I will miss them being little and not having a routine to our daily life. But for now I choose to embrace this new season and make the best of it. I have 3 beautiful healthy boys that love one another and a beautiful little house that suites us for now where I can enjoy seeing my boys run all around in.

 So here are the steps we learned at church to help us handle difficult times the way Jesus intends us to :

1.) Respecting and Resolving feelings 
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalms 34:18

2.)Reaching out to others

3.) Refusing to be Bitter
"Watch out that no bitterness takes root among you... it causes deep trouble hurting many in their spiritual lives." Hebrews 12:15

4.) Refocusing on the Truth
Matthew 26:31

5.) Relying on the Truth
" I have learned the secret of being happy at any tie in everything that happens, I can do all things through Christ, because he gives me strength ." Philippians 4:13

> Lean on Christ
>Go to Christ for Direction
>Trust in Christ for Salvation

I want to remember even these difficult moments because I know I will look back and see God's work in me, providing me with the strength I need to overcome this funk.

I hope this might also help anyone reading this going through anything in their life. It too shall pass. 

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Welcome Baby Benjamin!

We Are Officially a Family of 5!

Benjamin David McDaniels

Date of Birth
March 13, 2017

Time of Birth:

Weight & Height
7 lbs 12 oz  20 1/4 inches Long

Benjamin, you are oh so perfect in every way! You are everything we asked for ! We love you. Welcome son. 

Friday, March 10, 2017

"F My Life" 38 weeks with Baby Number 3!

3 F's in my life
Feeling: Fat, Fatigued and Fiesty.

Nope not carrying triplets, nor twins... theres just one in there. I do tend to get a big belly with pregnancy but it's usually accompanied with a larger body too! Well, don't get me wrong, thees plenty of cottage cheeseyness on my thighs to go around but ... I'm not as big body wise as I was with the other two.

Yesterday we had our 3rd ultrasound to measure baby since with gestational diabetes babies tend to get big... well to our surprise, baby is measuring in at 7.5 lbs! So what the heck?! Maybe a lot of amniotic fluid again? I don't know, but my belly feels so heavy and causes me so much hip, back and lower body pain. It's hard for me to go from sitting to standing.

In just a few days I will be 39 weeks and my doctor might induce than. Fingers crossed, I am ready to get this boy out!

In other news, We bought and installed baby boy's carseat!
It's tight in our little Nissan Sentra, but it'll do for now.
It's feeling more and more real that he'll be here in just days!
My hospital bag is packed and loaded. Just need to pack the boys' bag for staying at grandma's house for a couple of days and we're good.

Also been selling a lot on different apps to try and save and buy this beautiful and functional diaper bag

Isn't she lovely?! ha I want this so bad! And with three littles, the backpack style is perfect!

Friday, March 3, 2017

Meet Coco McD

Welcome the newest member of our family! Little miss Coco!
She is a Queensland Healer, and we got her just a week ago at 8 weeks old.
This little ball of fuzz has been such a fun addition to all the new changes around here! We are all enjoying her little sass butt trotting through our new house.

Trust me, I've heard it from plenty of our family saying how crazy we are to be adding more poop to our cleaning list... hahaha but one thing we knew we wanted when we had a house was a dog.

My best friend's mom was selling her pups and I asked Suzie about one. She said that for me it would be free and we couldn't pass her up!

So my train of thought with getting Coco just weeks before my due date is, getting the boys used to having a dog around and trying to potty train her all before the baby gets here. I can't see myself being home alone, trying to train and have a newborn at the same time along with two toddlers. So far it's been going good. She has accidents but is learning to pee on the puppy pads during the night or she'll cry for us to take her out. So we're close to getting her potty trained. The boys are a bit rough with her. Not in the sense that they're mean but they love her so so much they want to squeeze her and kiss her hard. And well, she's tiny and fragile still so it'll take a little bit of time to get them to be more and more gentle. I'm also showing them that with small living things you have to be soft and kind so hopefully they know to be more gentle with the baby.

Queensland Healers are a great fun family dog to have around. The thing that sold me on having this type of breed is that they are very protective dogs. Being in a new city, far from people I know or things I know, I wanted a dog that would look out for our family while being here alone. They are very energetic dogs and are known as the Australian Cattle Dog, they are a herding animal. We used to have an energetic dog, Cosby, and we loved him to death! We are an active family so for us that kept us entertained.  We weren't able to keep Cosby because our than landlord wouldn't allow for us to get the apartment with a pet so he stayed with my father in law. But now having a yard and kids that love to play, I don't see Coco being bored or too crazy for us. (fingers crossed)

 Learning how to go up and down steps. She cries while trying to hop up a step.

That's Coco! Our Family has grown before our 3rd baby's even arrived and it's been fun!

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